Where Is Jesus?

I can't explain the grief I feel in my heart as yet more scandals break out among Christian leaders and churches here in America. I got on my knees this morning and took my husband's hand to ask God to give us more character. I know that if my heart is breaking, that God's heart is breaking even more as wanton lawlessness continues to spread through the church like a virus. There are whole groups of people out there that would rather turn the blind eye than to look at the spots, wrinkles and blemishes on Christ's bride. I don't know about you but I hate getting stains on my clothes. Most people do. As soon as something drops onto our clothes our immediate reaction is to try to clean it off. Yet, churches keep their stains behind pulpits defiling the masses of people who hear them make excuses for their greed and licentiousness. God will not wink at sin no more. and He will not accept a bride who has stained the bridal clothes He has washed in His precious blood. 

And the times of this ignorance God winked at; but now commandeth all men every where to repent: Because he hath appointed a day, in the which he will judge the world in righteousness by that man whom he hath ordained; whereof he hath given assurance unto all men, in that he hath raised him from the dead. 

Acts 17:30-31

I see it in the newslines almost everyday as Christians around the world suffer severe persecution for their faith. Children picking through trash in Egypt, Christian missionaries requiring immediate help out of their countries or face death. Where is the money for their release? It is being spent on lavish homes, vacations, and buildings. Recently, they found a pastor and his wife, guilty of funneling money to his wife's Hollywood pop star career. They justified it by saying they were trying to crossover into secular media and be an influence there. How can they be? When his wife is seductively dressed and looks nothing like Jesus. Instead of the church being a Joseph in the time of famine, millions of dollars are misspent on lavish living all the while American parishioners struggle with homelessness, hunger and widespread poverty. It sickens me and it sickens God.


“I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot,I will vomit you out of My mouth. Because you say, ‘I am rich, have become wealthy, and have need of nothing’—and do not know that you are wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked— I counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments, that you may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed; and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see. (Revelations 3:15-18)
In the above scripture, Jesus, lets the church know that even though they think they need nothing and are quite content with their status quo, that they are actually blind to their spiritual condition. His counsel is for them to buy gold refined in the fire. There is no other way to rid ourselves of the spiritual blindness, lukewarmness, and shame; other than to be baptized in fire. It is the only way to gain heaven's riches and get our robes to become white again! It is fire that will cause us to reflect the Jesus everyone is looking for!

In this very hour of apostasy, the masses are crying out where is Jesus?! Many wander around from church to church trying to find Him. Others have given up their quest to find this wonderful Jesus they read about in their bible. Instead they spend their time watching an image on TV from a distance that will not disappoint them. Some of them don't realize that the reason Jesus has been hard to find is because He can no longer be seen in their own lives. They have allowed the sin of others to cause their own fire to grow cold. The good news is that your heart can receive a fresh new baptism of His holy fire causing you to return to the passionate, fervent love that you had when you first met Him!

For those of you who are discouraged, I want to encourage you to find Jesus in places you never thought of looking. Jesus is behind the prison walls declaring God's freedom to the captive. He is sitting on the street with a homeless sign and laying in the hospital waiting for your prayers. He waits eagerly in the morning for your eyes to open so He can speak to you. He looks back at you when you look in the mirror. He waits for you to be His hands, His feet and His voice to this world. 

Where are the Mother Theresa's of this hour? Who dragged the sick and dying sinners out of the mud of Calcutta. Where are the William Booth's who called sinners to sing a new song unto the Lord? Where are the William Seymour's who make themselves of no reputation and who hide their faces from men so that they can be seen of God? Where are the Moses' who forsook the treasures of Egypt, refusing to take the name of Pharaoh's daughter and chose to be counted among his suffering brethren? Where are the disciples who do not find themselves worthy to suffer on the cross as their savior did? Where are those who like Jesus, do not love their lives unto death that they might have a better resurrection? Where is Jesus?! He is waiting to be made manifest through you!

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We Must Decrease That He May Increase

Thus says the Lord:
 Jeremiah 6:16
Love is so attractive and in essence that is who He is. If we are to have revival we must become love. We must decrease so He can increase. So my friends there lies the root of the problem. We have increased ourselves so much in the sight of others that they don't see Him anymore! The only solution is to take up the cross and deny ourselves. We must put away selfish ambition and empty conceit; esteeming others higher than ourselves. Philippians 2:3-4 We must humbly concede all of our plans to God so that He can take over our services and ministries. Then we must become like that humble man (William Seymour) at Azusa Street who buried his face between wooden crates and prayed for God's presence to visit His people.
Love is so attractive and in essence that is who He is. If we are to have revival we must become love. We must decrease so He can increase. So my friends there lies the root of the problem. We have increased ourselves so much in the sight of others that they don't see Him anymore! The only solution is to take up the cross and deny ourselves. We must put away selfish ambition and empty conceit; esteeming others higher than ourselves. Philippians 2:3-4 We must humbly concede all of our plans to God so that He can take over our services and ministries. Then we must become like that humble man (William Seymour) at Azusa Street who buried his face between wooden crates and prayed for God's presence to visit His people.

“Stand in the ways and see,
And ask for the old paths, where the good way is,
And walk in it;
Then you will find rest for your souls.

What people are really looking for is the presence of God. Not another song, another motivational speech, conference or guest speaker. They just want Jesus but we get in His way because we want to be seen. This world just wants to see Jesus but they see human flesh and are turned off by it.

Our mantra should be the cry of the Welsh Revival "bend us." Their plan of action:

1. Confess all known sin

2. Deal with and get rid of anything ‘doubtful’ in your life

3. Be ready to obey the Holy Spirit instantly

4. Confess Christ publicly

If we as a church were to truly just put into practice the 1st principle and humbly confess our sin; that alone would cause a great move of God! Before we can ever experience the times of refreshing we must come with penitent hearts. However, if we go around and act as if we are in need of nothing, we will not experience the very thing we need the most. The current mantra is: we have no sin, we need no conviction and we need no law! We are fine the way we are. The lukewarm church in Revelation also held the same view they did "not know that they were wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked." Yet the counsel of God remains the same, "I counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments, that you may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed; and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see." (Revelations 3:18) It is only through the baptism of fire that may obtain the precious gold crown that Jesus wants to bestow on us.

My friends we can not wear a crown if we won't carry the cross. We have become ashamed of the gospel and rarely preach being crucified with Christ. We have replaced these biblical principles with modern doctrines that have steered us away from taking personal responsibility for the awful shape we are in. Yet, the bible warned us long ago... For when they say, “Peace and safety!” then sudden destruction comes upon them, as labor pains upon a pregnant woman. And they shall not escape. ⁴ But you, brethren, are not in darkness, so that this Day should overtake you as a thief.
(1 Thess. 5:3-4) 

Could it be that the pregnant church has not given birth to revival because of the lack of repentance? Jesus warned us “Take heed that no one deceives you. ⁵ For many will come in My name, saying, ‘I am the Christ,’ and will deceive many." Matthew 24:4-5 It is those who come in His name that we need to be worried about in these Last Days. Jesus tells us how we will know they are false prophets, "Then many false prophets will rise up and deceive many. ¹² And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold." Matthew 24: 11-12 These are the mark of false prophets. They are lawless and Jesus will say to them in that day, "I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!" These ministers thought they could work mighty signs and wonders yet be living outside of God's laws and principles. There will be no such thing! Our sin will never enter into the Holy of Holies; nor will we, be able to flaunt our works before a holy God.  

My friends, is there anything doubtful in our lives? Any sin? Let us confess to God what is causing us to stumble. Forgiving others who have hurt us. Laying down our pride. Picking up our cross and denying ourselves. Esteeming others higher than ourselves. Loving others unconditionally. It is what Jesus did. "Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus, ⁶ who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God, ⁷ but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming in the likeness of men. ⁸ And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross." Philippians 2:5-8 

Oh Father, make us humble bondservants. Give us the mind of Christ. Give us that love. Help us decrease. Increase in our lives. Father let us never be ashamed of preaching the cross that you so humbly died on. Bring revival to our nation and to our lives in Jesus name.

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Empty Pews? Roadblocks to Breakthrough!

It is no secret that over the past few years church attendance has dropped dramatically. As the economy has soured so has the attitudes of many Christians. Once promised great wealth and success more Christians are finding themselves on the brink of despair as they struggle to survive. The reality is that for years they have been sold on the idea that all they had to do is give faithfully and their worries would be the thing of the past. Some of them were sold on the idea through prophecy and when things started to fall apart at home they felt betrayed by leadership. Completely unprepared to suffer through hardship because of what they were taught more Christians are throwing in the towel and giving up on church altogether.

Unfortunately, for many ministries more and more people have become aware of the ongoing exploitation of God's faithful.  Promises of breakthrough for a price. The endless dangling of monetary gain if we are to invest just once more in this eternal lottery. One day we will hit the big time but what happens when it never comes. My friends we have bought into the Capitalistic gospel instead of how life really works.  See life really works like this: You work hard, get an education and develop your talents.  For many of us financial principles were never taught to us except for giving our tithe into a basket. You do realize of course that many people become wealthy that never give into a church basket but become successful through hard work and entrepreneurship. Like Jesus said for the children of this world are in their generation are wiser than the children of light. Luke 16:8
Don't get me wrong God blesses givers but you must be willing to get a secular education to get a good job now or days. Most companies won't even look at you if you don't have a bachelors degree. There are more people with less education occupying your basic jobs and because of the shortage, companies have set the bar real high. This is not a mystery or problem that can be solved by throwing money into a basket. I thought I would tell you the truth.  Most people in ministry now or days have to work regular jobs. The economy has changed the rules of the game. So don't sit back and hope that things are going to change real soon because it may be years and in the meantime your family will be lacking or you will have to become more overbearing to get people to tithe in your congregation who have their own families to think about. Which brings me to my next point.

Christians want to receive all kinds of ministry but they don't want to be a blessing to those who are working hard to keep the lights on. Things aren't free you know. I know many legit ministers who can't pay their bills but still make it their job to feed the homeless, reach the broken and do missions work. I thought it would only be fair to present both sides. Yes, there may be ministries who exploit people but there are people out there who are genuinely are working in God's harvest fields and who are good ground. If you don't sow your seed in good ground don't be surprised if your field is empty and your pockets. Obedience is key to breakthrough not just giving. Back to my original subject.

Not only are more people becoming aware of the financial exploitation in Christendom but they are also experiencing the lack of genuine care that leadership has for them. They know they are just dollar signs sitting on the pew because as soon as they are gone they are forgotten. No phone calls or how are you doing. No prayer going up just a barrage of gossip behind their backs. I know this to be true because I have sat behind closed doors in many leadership meetings to witness this spiritual cannibalism. Honestly, I can tell you that I have received more hate e-mails from Pastors than sinners. Their reason for telling me off was I decided to exercise my free will and attend another church. I didn't find feasting on the flesh of other Christians very appetizing that is why I left. Let's be honest, sheep can bite and leave real wounds in people. As long as we keep ignoring these things and pretend they are not happening we will never make the necessary changes to make things right. I will be the first to admit that I got quite tired from the nonsense and took a break from church life because of the above issues.

For the first time in 30 years I joined the unchurched and really got to process my Christianity.  I got to rub shoulders with those who have left the church establishment years ago. Many of the people out there got tired of trying to fit in to the church cliques, or were too offended to come back after they got wounded or even lost their way and backslid. A huge percentage of the people out there never find their way back because people forget about them as soon as they leave the church. They are no longer relevant or fueling the machine. They are castaways on the island of isolation. There the devil gets his way, keeping them out of reach of rescue while they lose hope in God. Have we forgotten the heart of Jesus in this matter? Where is the one?

If spiritual child abandonment and rejection was a crime there would be many people in church in jail.  Our own hurt in leadership sometimes causes us to hurt others and continue the cycle in our own ministries. We don't talk about it but when we get offended instead of going to that person in love we write them off.  The truth is people just want to experience the unconditional love of God from His people. What they really want is to know is that they will be cared about even if they don't give, go to your church or believe differently than you do. They want to know that the relationship they have with you isn't about your ministry or their service to your personal dream. People are looking for genuine transparent relationships outside of the four walls who aren't afraid of intimacy in God. When we make our ministries more about others instead of making it about ourselves we will see church attendance grow again. People know when your motive is only to recruit them and make them part of your team. Love has to be the purpose and motive behind everything we do. So don't blame people for leaving your ministry when clearly you were the reason they left. Then on the other hand...

If you are offended with church and leadership you are not in a good place. You will not grow in your walk watching YouTube videos from your favorite preachers. I know that because I tried it. I was literally drying up on the vine. We must stay in fellowship with other believers and find ways to stay on fire. We need to leave the comfort of our offended walls and remember that there is people out there who need Jesus. We will be accountable for burying the talents God gave us. We will be responsible for the oil God gave us and we will stand before him for ignoring the plight of humanity. Matthew 25 We all get hurt and we need to remember that if anyone had the right to stay away from humanity it was God but instead he came to lay down His life for us fully knowing how barbaric we were and that he would have to die for us. He was betrayed, rejected, humiliated, gossiped about, hated and all He did was love people. Then to add insult to injury only weeks after everyone is singing his praises they were shouting, "Crucify Him!" Thank God he didn't throw in the towel because His love towards those haters really paid off. I was one of them how about you? Yes love is risky but it can have huge payoffs...just ask Jesus.

One more thing...don't just brush this off. If you were an insensitive jerk go to that person and make it right. You might as well face them now because I highly doubt our Father is going to let us get away with avoiding them in heaven if we go there that is. We Christians are so good at preaching forgiveness of sins but trying to get a Christian to say they are sorry well...it is like pulling teeth. Go ahead, you have nothing to lose than to call all the people you are hurt with or send them an e-mail and love them expecting nothing in return. Jesus said, Love your enemies... I mean those other Christians. It will help you move on and possibly get that breakthrough you have been needing. Not because of giving but because of your obedience to LOVE. Unforgiveness and offense are sometimes the biggest roadblocks in our walk with God keeping us from the very thing we are crying out for BREAKTHROUGH! The next time you see the basket put your heart in there and give it to someone who needs Him.

And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. ⁶ For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. Romans 5:5-6

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Recognizing Spiritual Abuse

Years ago after becoming a new Christian, I found myself in a very precarious situation. I had followed some of my friends into a church that by all appearances seemed like a normal everyday Christian church but behind closed doors, it started to become very controlling towards its members. The leadership was on fire. We were there every day pressing in, hitting the streets, and we were all very close to each other. Most of us had come out of another failed ministry in which the leader had gotten involved in an immoral affair with another member. We were ready to continue to seek God with all of our hearts under strong leadership.

At first glance, the small changes or requests from leadership were not noticeable. They wanted us to be more committed to being at church. Ok, no big deal. I was there almost every day. Then came the sermons about how "special" we were as a church, and a movement. We warned about the "other" churches, and how we should not associate with people from the "outside" unless we had permission from the Pastor. After all, he was the overseer of our souls and had our best interest in mind. He didn't want us to stray so the music we were listening to had to be approved. Many people just threw away their TV's, and soon everyone was asking the Pastor what they could or could not do. They even had to get permission who they should date or marry. To make matters worse I was living with the people from the church, and now they knew my every movement 24/7. I once had a friend visit me, and I was rebuked by the church members that we were not to be in fellowship with people who did not attend our church. I was troubled. What was more disconcerting was the fact that strife was breaking out in a church that was so dedicated to God. I never felt so far from God in my life. I couldn't understand how I could be in church every day, and feel so far from Him. I had been caught up in legalism and not doing things out of love but out of duty. I was even told that women could not be evangelists. For years I never told a soul about Jesus. How tragic to believe such a lie.

Then one day I went to hug one of my closest friends at church. He moved away from me to avoid my hug. I thought he was playing so I attempted to hug him again. He informed me that while I was gone the Pastor had forbidden any hugging in church. I was stunned. It was then that I realized how much control the Pastor had over the church. One Sunday some church members that had been gone awhile took me aside and warned me about the Pastor. Every sign of a cult leader was beginning to emerge. I knew what they were telling me was true but I felt stuck and didn't want to leave my friends. The control and manipulation continued until one day I literally threw all of my clothes in a plastic bag and ran away in the middle of the night.




My dear friend, if you are in a similar situation or if this sounds familiar to you please note the following:

1. The Holy Spirit does not control. He leads. Be careful when anyone uses scripture to get you to obey them unconditionally or without question or uses submission as a form of manipulation. There's a difference between obeying God and man. God never forces His will on people. He wants us to obey Him out of love, not fear. Reverence and fear are different. Fear has torment.
For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.

Romans 8:14
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

2. The Holy Spirit will never lead anyone to violate their own personal boundaries, conscience, ethics or morality. Nor will God lead anyone to cover up for someone else's sin.
And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them. Ephesians 5:11

3. The Holy Spirit will never lead you to ignore your wife and children over the ministry. You must give equal time to your family; they are your first ministry. If you are being asked to put the needs of the church above your family's needs then there is spiritual abuse in leadership.

This is a faithful saying: If a man desires the position of a bishop, he desires a good work. 2 A bishop then must be blameless, the husband of one wife, temperate, sober-minded, of good behavior, hospitable, able to teach; 3 not given to wine, not violent, not greedy for money, but gentle, not quarrelsome, not covetous; 4 one who rules his own house well, having his children in submission with all reverence 5 (for if a man does not know how to rule his own house, how will he take care of the church of God?); 1 Timothy 3:1-5

4. The Holy Spirit convicts us of sin. If the Pastor is correcting you from the pulpit in front everyone then he is operating in the flesh and abusing his authority. Holy Spirit will not condemn us from the pulpit, nor will He shame us, embarrass us or belittle us. He will not abuse us verbally or threaten us. If anyone is doing this in your life then leave that situation until there has been genuine fruit and repentance. Realize this is manipulation and control. This does not apply to someone in a state of apostasy. If you are in unrepentant sin make

sure your sin will find you out and the Holy Spirit will correct you openly.And when He has come, He will convict the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment: John 16:8

There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. Romans 8:1

5. The Holy Spirit will not tell you to separate yourself from the people you love. He will tell you to separate yourself from their sin. He will not lead you into isolation unless it is for fasting and praying. If you are being told not to talk to anyone outside your fellowship, church or group...run for the hills! If your leader is bad-mouthing others or making racial or inappropriate statements about others then they are not walking in love. Their heart is full of darkness. Also, be careful if a leader turns members against each other by playing favorites. Our loyalty should only be to Christ.

Now I plead with you, brethren, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that you all speak the same thing, and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be perfectly joined together in the same mind and in the same judgment. 1 Corinthians 1:10

He who says he is in the light and hates his brother is in darkness until now. 1 John 2:9

6. The Holy Spirit does not have an exclusive club. He has poured out His Spirit on all flesh. Anyone that claims they have a special revelation from God is in pride. We all have equal access to God. Be careful when a person starts to make you feel inferior or incapable of hearing God for yourself or causing to question your ability to live for God outside their help and making you believe that he only anoints a certain class of people. The Holy Spirit poured himself into ALL flesh. God has ordained you, anointed you, commissioned you and empowered you. You don't need the permission of men to do what God has already commanded you to do. Neither do you need the permission of men to move in what the Holy Spirit is telling you! Yes, we need accountability and we need to have reverence towards God's leaders but never at the expense of obeying God!

"And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God, That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, Your young men shall see visions, Your old men shall dream dreams." Acts 2:17

7. The Holy Spirit does not use prophecy to direct your every step. You have the mind of Christ. If you are His sheep then you hear His voice. Be careful not to become dependent upon others to hear from God for you. This is very dangerous! Many cults have been formed from supposed revelations that no one else can hear or see but them. Prophecy or spiritual gifts are no indication of whether you should trust someone. Evaluate their moral character and watch for the fruit of the Spirit in their life. Especially the fruit of love.

My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.
John 10:27

8. The Holy Spirit is not involved in fear-mongering to get you to obey Him. We obey God because we love Him. If someone is telling you that you will be cursed if you leave their ministry or group then you know for sure that it is time to leave and not look back. Placing curses on others because you don't obey them unconditionally is witchcraft and the spirit of Jezebel.

If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love. John 15:10

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18

9. We follow Jesus in men and submit to God in one another. The key to submission is being submitted to God. Once the man stops following God, we stop following that man.
Be ye followers of me, even as I also am of Christ. 1 Corinthians 11:1

10. We are called to serve God not men. If a man is treating you like his personal servant then realize that the man is only interested in you as long as you are serving his personal vision. God's called us to build His Kingdom not the kingdom of men. Some of us our serving men instead of God. Jesus should be the only one sitting on the throne of your heart.

“No servant can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.” Luke 16:13

11. The Holy Spirit never directs people to give and put themselves in debt. It is contrary to the principles of God's Word. Prophecy should not be used to direct people to how much, when, and where they should give. This is witchcraft.

Do not be one of those who shakes hands in a pledge,
One of those who is surety for debts;
27 If you have nothing with which to pay,
Why should he take away your bed from under you? Proverbs 22:26-27

12. Lastly, stop treating preachers like movie stars. They are only elected officials that God appointed to help you grow, teach you, equip you, and send you to do the work of the ministry. Learn to separate the gift or talent from the man. You will not be disappointed this way or deceived.

"Shepherd the flock of God which is among you, serving as overseers, not by compulsion but willingly, not for dishonest gain but eagerly; 3 nor as being lords over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock; 4 and when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the crown of glory that does not fade away." 1 Peter 5:2-4

Before everyone goes running off and leaving the church... please remember to do the following:

1. Pray for your leaders. God much rather keep the church family together if possible unless there is known sexual immorality, moral failure, and or outright spiritual abuse.

Brethren, if a man is overtaken in any trespass, you who are spiritual restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness, considering yourself lest you also be tempted. Galatians 6:1

2. Try to bring correction by using bible model. Two or three witnesses must go to leadership in the spirit of humility to talk about the church's concerns.

“Moreover if your brother sins against you, go and tell him his fault between you and him alone. If he hears you, you have gained your brother. 16 But if he will not hear, take with you one or two more, that ‘by the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.’ 17 And if he refuses to hear them, tell it to the church. But if he refuses even to hear the church, let him be to you like a heathen and a tax collector." Matthew 18:15-17

Do not receive an accusation against an elder except from two or three witnesses. 20 Those who are sinning rebuke in the presence of all, that the rest also may fear. 1 Timothy 5:19-20

3. In extreme cases please warn those around you. In other words, don't jump ship, and not let others know the ship is sinking. This happened to me one time. I was attending a church that was heading towards a shipwreck and instead of people warning the remaining survivors they just started to disappear. That hurt me more than the moral failure of the Pastor because the other people in leadership knew but didn't bother to warn us.

This charge I commit to you, son Timothy, according to the prophecies previously made concerning you, that by them you may wage the good warfare, 19 having faith and a good conscience, which some having rejected, concerning the faith have suffered shipwreck.
1 Timothy 1:18-19

Please know that you are not alone.

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